“i wish i could feel differently”

“i wish i could feel differently”

i awoke this morning

as i do every morning,

sat up on the edge of the bed,

as i do every morning,

and pondered the lack of humanity

in mankind.

i saw a movie once

in which a character stated

humans are a virus

on the planet earth.

i agree.

but he missed one crucial detail;

a virus isn’t malicious.

a virus just does what it does.

but the cruelty of man…

the apathy of man…

the insensitivity of man…

i awoke this morning

as i do every morning,

sat up on the edge of the bed,

as i do every morning,

and wondered if today will,

indeed be the day…

will today be the day

Jehovah, Krishna, Allah,

(insert your favorite deity here)

finally says

that’s it; i’ve had enough!

it’s time to let the pandas

have their shot!

i awoke this morning

as i do every morning,

sat up on the edge of the bed,

as i do every morning,

and thought about the soulless husks

walking the halls of our schools,

and wept.

i thought about the soulless husks

standing in the pulpits,

and wept.

 

i thought about the soulless husks

skipping around capitol hill,

and wept.

i wish i could feel differently,

just for a while.

i wish i could awaken to daylight

and eat my breakfast

with a smile.

but i’m afraid i’ll simply wake in the morning,

as i do every morning,

sit up on the edge of the bed,

as i do every morning,

stare into the darkness and

listen for the coyote’s howl,

listen for my wife’s breath,

listen for the train’s distant roar,

listen for something to push my feet

toward the door.